37 Things

1. I usually eat my food sequentially, consuming one item at a time on my plate
2. As an adult, I have never lived in a house that had a dishwasher
3. For eleven years I lived without a flush toilet
4. We also had no running hot water
5. For at least three of those years, we had no running water at all and would go into town to gather it in five gallon jugs from a neighbor's house
6. We heated exclusively with wood
7. My ex has lived like this since he moved to his father and uncle's old farm in October of 1988
8. I loved that place -  still do
9. When he and I split up I lived for two years in a travel trailer (a beautiful Airstream!) with no electricity
10. I have grown my own food
11. I score 1 point away from the Asperger's score on most on-line autism tests
12. I still don't understand the things which motivate people, though others around me get this sort of information as if through osmosis
13. I don't live entirely in the 'here and now'; I walk the Otherworlds occasionally
14. As a child I sometimes knew who was going to call before the phone rang, who was going to come by the house before the knock sounded, etc. 
15. I put these abilities away when I went to Engineering School - they weren't 'scientific'
16. When they began coming roaring back, I ended up leaving my technical career to become a bodyworker
17. "Healer" is closest word I can think of that matches what I do now 
18. That word makes me squirm
19. But it fits
20. I don't know how to create business cards and brochures for that 
21. Had you told me six years ago that I would be walking the Otherworlds, teaching classes in shamanism and guiding others in being mediums for compassionate deities, I would have doubled over in laughter
22. Had you told me fifteen years ago that I would be doing *anything* other than crafting software or building robots, I would have been offended and angry
23. Had you told me just how much I love this new life, I would have been frightened
24. I love what I'm becoming
25. I love what I've been at each time in my life 
26. Even as a child I had affinity with mechanical things
27. I put this to good and unconscious use - as a software developer at an almost-Ivy university I could almost walk into a room and tell what was wrong with a piece of machinery just by the way it felt; machines sort of talk to me that way
28. I usually know a machine is going to break before anyone else
29. I feel their pain, and I hate it when people mistreat them
30. I work in a major medical institution, a regional cancer center, doing massage
31. and shamanic healing
32. and energy work
33. and every single shamanic healing technique you can think of
34. Soul Retrieval 
35. even Depossession.  
36. Many, many times
37. the farther down the rabbit hole I go, the more at home I am